I am only human
It’s hard to remember sometimes that we are only human. Stress can have a cumulative effect and, unless you acknowledge that it is there, it has a nasty habit of creeping up and biting you on the bottom! I have just found out that I am only human!
I have spent so long juggling umpteen balls, that it was inevitable, eventually, they would all come crashing down around me!
Yep, I’ve completely stuffed up and I put my hands up to the fact that I am only human!
We have a lovely holiday booked, at an autism friendly glamping site, and I’ve just found out that we still owe half the money!
My happy little bubble
I was in my happy little bubble in which I thought we had paid for it! Whilst trying to get my accounts up to date (Tax Credits renewal has just come in and I need to sort out what is going on) I discovered the shocking truth. My little bubble has burst and I was forced to admit that I am only human.
No, it’s not the end of the world but, when I found out that I only paid the deposit, I felt a complete failure. I felt that I had let my family down. I’m sure you can understand where I’m coming from. I’m not used to failing. In fact, I pride myself on the fact that I accomplish everything that I set out to do!
Plan of action
So…… what did I do?
- I reminded myself that I am only human (yep, even me lol)
- I swore. Yep, I’m sorry but I needed to vent after all, I am only human (refer to previous step)
- Then I ate chocolate – in my world chocolate makes everything seem better. If I’ve had a particularly stressful day, my husband buys me chocolate and then throws it at me from a safe distance…….
- Once I’d done the above, I then just told my husband that he had to work harder….not sure if that was fair but it’s just the way it is.
- July is going to be a “No spend” month. Have you ever tried it? I’d love to hear how you got on….
Did these things make me feel better? Sort of I guess but at least I’m now not facing the problem alone. We actually still have plenty of time to get the rest of the money together so, in reality, it isn’t a crisis yet. As a family, we will overcome this minor little set back.
The one thing that I have learnt is that you can’t do these things alone. Being a special needs mum is a lonely life but, you know what? We are all stronger than we think. There is always someone to reach out to.
Why have I told you about this?
That’s simple. I’m told by so many people that we are “coping so well”. All I want to shout is “if only you knew!” But that’s not really fair. Why would they know…..
The image that you show people and what you actually are, are two different things and, you know what? That’s ok. As a special needs family, we are all going through our own little (for little read major) battles and, every so often, it is absolutely fine to show the less than perfect side of your life, after all, we are all only human.
Until next time, stay strong and remember – we are ALL only human.
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